History was alright! My paper ended 3 hours ago. I wrote about the Constitution and the period after the Civil War in the 19th Century. Total? 2 booklets. All 20 pages for 2 questions.. But quantity doesn't ensure quality... :/

After the exam I popped by Subway at the university and bought 2 MEALS of 6-inch subs (total foot long) to reward myself. Oh and did I tell you I lost more weight? I know, it rocks when this happens.

My hands are tired from writing, my brain is tired from thinking, and I'm going to rest and recharge for the next paper. Byeee!

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Hi everyone! My mood these days have been fluctuating from the highest of highs to the lowest of lows it's like I have split personalities.

Anyway I've finally finished most of my hell week. MOST deadlines are met, and I've finished three exam papers (two to go!) I think I deserve a mini celebration! Or at least a good swim. I haven't swam ever since my hell period started and I think I'm getting really unfit. :(


I've been telling everyone I'm a Duracell bunny, but the real secret is I'm not. Yes, I haven't been getting regular sleep, but so what? Tons of other people in my university - smarter, more hardworking people, aren't even sleeping at all. Since I finished my case report (youpi!) and my three papers and all my presentations (triple yay!), I've been thinking about that holiday in December.

Europe. One month. Like what I did for the past few years (okay, I didn't go away for a month, and I went to the US twice in the few years).

But I'm passing on the offer. I know, I'm crazy right? Birthday overseas - I'll pass. Christmas overseas - no big, I'll pass. But New Year's overseas? I'll pass!

Well I always do things for a reason. You know, those hardworking people I talk about? Do you see them go on holiday? Nope. Do they drop their work just so they can sit in Bryant Park in Manhattan doing nothing and watching people ice skate? Nope. So anyway, I was thinking about this for a couple months already, I passed on so many airline offers, because well, you know, I'm not even going for a break at the end of this year. I'm gonna spend some time in the office. That's right. That's me. Run all the way to the finish line!

BUT I will miss winter. I will miss strolling around streets doing tons of mindless things. I will miss being on an airplane. And man, I'd really want to do that - hopefully there's next time!

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I'm clearly not very busy, since I have time to post this ;)



I used to pass by this road a lot (still do, couple of my friends live by this street) while heading home during my junior college (=high school) days. It's filled with tons of memories. And I just got a message that my JC principal's stepping down, so it's like a whole new cycle again.



I managed to find some time to celebrate a friend's birthday, and then after I spent my whole Saturday doing absolutely nothing except to listen to the audio recordings I made of my professor's lecture (he speaks too fast, I write too slow).

When I was younger (say 16, 17) I used to listen to a lot of music like... Dashboard Confessional. Then I grew out of that phase, and I've been subconsciously listening to Stolen now so they're back on my playlist again. :)

And even though my good ol' iPod shuffle's dead, I've thankfully found my replacement in my iPhone (which, by the way, is taking up a huge time in my life... not good!) :)

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It's 5.19AM, I'm reading about mortgage-backed securities in Tuckman's bible:

... mortgage pools that have been heavily refinanced in the past respond more slowly to new drops in rates. This phenomenon has been called the burn-out effect.

Yeah, burn out alright, that's me. I'm a mortgage pool. J

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Do you see a person in a chicken suit above in the picture? Don't even ask. My friend summed it up by saying, "We can tell our German teacher 'Heute essen wir mit Hähnchen.' He'll ask, you mean you ate chicken? And we'll answer, no, we ate with a chicken."

Next week is Hell Week - it varies amongst the undergrads when your hell week is, cos it depends on when your professors decide to (subconsciously) gang up on you and demand (ok, not demand, but it makes us sound like victims) you submit everything by a certain date.

Which means this weekend is Hell Weekend. :( BUT, finally, after three painfully written drafts, I've FINALLY finished writing my history essay! YAY! That's Saturday's accomplishment for me.

We had a really fun time in German class yesterday, which took my mind off what's to come next week: (If I make any grammatical mistakes, well, it's cos I have to REALLY start studying for semester test, haha!)

Meine Lehrerin: Arbeiten Ihre Eltern oder nur Ihr Vater oder nur Ihre Mutter?
S: Beide
Ich: Beide
S2: Beide
T: Nur mein Vater
J: Nur mein Vater
Y: Huh?
Meine Lehrerin: (pointing at us) Eins, zwei, drei, vier, fünf, daaaaaaa!

Meine Lehrerin: Who were you living with when you were a baby? (I can't remember how she phrased this..)
Ich: Bei meinen Großeltern
S2: Bei meine Mutter
S: Meine Eltern
Y: Meine Oma
J: Meine Eltern
T: Was ist die Frage?
Meine Lehrerin: ...

OK I'm going to study for my German test next week. :( And start preparations proper for a million project meetings.

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So I finally got out proper to drink after many weeks of cooping myself to my home and school, because well, I put in THAT much effort for my financial markets midterm and I was so absolutely 100% sure that I didn't make any major errors and look what happened.

So I got to chanting "if you can meet with triumph and disaster and treat those two imposters just the same..."

But really, ouch, being average is starting to disgust me. I used to be Zen about this - life is like advertising isn't it? You "advertise" (ie work hard) 100% of the time knowing that sometimes it doesn't pay off, but maybe sometimes, it's just bad advertising. And I don't think my strategy is poor.

Being graded on a bell curve is really starting to piss me off. I need a new strategy, but I'm out of ideas.





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